I just now realized that I forgot to put the memorial details on this blog, my sincere apologies for that! Hopefully nobody missed it because they didn't know the information!

This is a video Eulogy that my sister and I put together the service that was held yesterday.

Have a wonderful evening...

Patti Lundquist Memorial Video Eulogy

In the way that was so typical for Mom, humbly and without much adieu, She slipped away to be with Jesus at 10:30 this morning. We will miss her goofy, sweet and loving presence more than we can say. We are comforted in knowing she is finally dancing on the streets of gold free from the pain and struggle of this world. She would always say how she longed to be home with our Savior, and we look forward to the day that we can join her there.

As we come to the end of this journey we would like to thank you all for your love, prayers, support and meals. 

We will post details about the memorial service soon. 

-Terry, Karen, and Lisa

another day, another hour, another minute.... (i don't know what to title these)

Not much has happened today. Deep breaths that come from her torso that seem to take so much strength. Same stopping and starting breathing intervals. Her blood pressure has definitely dropped, which is another sign. The hospice nurse came today, and because mom has been moaning a little more when we need to move her, she suggested upping the pain meds a bit more to keep her comfortable.
We also gave her something for congestion as it seemed her coughing was coming from a deeper place and not just when taking meds. That was just given a few hours ago, have seen a little change since.
The hospice nurse has also said that because mom is young and had been in pretty good health, besides the tumor, it may just take the organs longer to shut down. Her major organs were never compromised by the cancer, as with many other cases she sees, so this is one explanation of the long haul we're experiencing. My sister and I kind of joked, maybe we should just not take care of our bodies so if this happens to u,s our families won't have to go through the same thing. Of course, we're not serious... gotta find humor in things still.
Still right here waiting by her side... it will become harder tomorrow to know personally for Karen and I what to do. We know it might not be possible to be there when she goes, as we have families at home, but it's so hard to leave. As I mentioned in a comment on the last post, Karen's kids get school off tomorrow which is definitely a blessing. Who would have thought the extreme cold could be good for something?! What if... what if... there was a third day... ha! All the mothers with school kids are probably saying noooo, please nooo....

In the last couple days since I posted, there have been minor changes that indicate the time is drawing near. Her knees, bottoms of feet and elbows are purple and skin is getting mottled. Her temperature has fluctuated and at times is feverish and she has apnea that lasts from 6 up to 12 seconds (no breathing in those times). From time to time she will let out some moans/sounds and open her eyes a bit. All day my sister, me, and dad (and a few visitors for a short bit) have been here, sitting, sleeping, eating, talking, waiting. The three of us just all want to be here when she breaths her last breath, it's so hard to know. There is no play book for this, no way to know... our human minds can't understand. I was just encouraged by a friend's blog and the story of her recent baby's birth. There were multiple things that God had his hand on so specifically, he knows and we don't always in the present moments.

Jasmine

This is Jasmine's spot on mom's bed, she barely moves, just for the occasional drink from the tub faucet when she knows you're in the bathroom

I did the overnight last night. Her breathing is getting much shorter, and swallowing is very hard. As I said in the post the other day, it is hard to give her the meds, but we still need to give her certain ones. When she is sleeping she does seem to be peaceful, so that is good. Fortunately, the 2am wake up for meds went very well last night with minimal coughing/choking. When I gave them to her this morning, a tear trickled down her face. Her eyes are goopy etc, for the most part and tearing is pretty normal, but I was still struck by it actually running down her face.
I've been trying to be more intentional to atleast once a day, for even just a few minutes, to meditate on a verse or two. It has helped me to continue and focus on the hope of glory that is to come, for her and for all of us when it is time.
Thank you for the prayers, texts of encouragement, emails, messages, meals, etc. As I believe I've said before... we weren't made to do any of life alone, especially now... "it takes a village"... love to you all...